You ever…

You ever wanna do something you probably shouldn’t do? Or you not really trying to do something that seems like the fitting thing to do?

I mean I’m what one might consider a goodygood… ok I definitely am… but I got alot of tendencies toward certain behaviors… which is why I don’t do most of the things people my age do… I can get really wrapped up in some stuff… Having a mind of my own doesn’t help either…. I usually need a sounding board for the things that I’m thinking about, this doesn’t mean I’m not capable of making my own decisions because I am… but I need perspective so I make wise decisions… But if I am truly determined it will get done…

Which is where I find myself now at this point in my life… I am kinda in this “Do, Me” phase…. where I want what I want but the sane parts of me are trying to keep it all together (that’s where God comes in, cause I be havin alot on my mind sometimes)… I mean I went to a party yesterday which I enjoyed, but I don’t drink… They didn’t care… and most of me… the part that is responsible and didn’t drink because of the fact that I was driving was cool… I was just the part of me that sampled the dacari like mix, and wanted a shot of E&J, and a really fruity Smirnoff… was sitting there not wanting to think about being responsible… was I trying to get drunk or something no… and I don’t think I woulda had any issue holding a little bit more, but I was trying to consider where that door would take me… No reflection on what anyone else does, but where it would take me…

The same is true for other scenarios… wanting what I want, and trying to be patient till I get what I need…

I guess I’m not trying to answer the question…. just exploring how I feel about it…


About genesiawilliams

I must apologize if this isn't exciting... though this may seem odd my decision to enter the blogging world, was less for an audience and more for me as an exercise in discipline, which i clearly lack if you see the frequency of the posts, but still it is weird because I am airing my thoughts on the biggest communication tool since the pony express, but if you like what you read feel free to comment and/or share... if not thank you for taking the time out of your life to check me out.... I'm pretty laid back, and I'm open for comments....

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